My Current Question

The different realms of the human mind is something that can fascinate anyone. Its complexity is a pure awe to one and all. I'm implying this on the terms that there can be so many interpretations of one single aspect, in the mind of just one individual.

Now the questions I have in mind involves the most important objective of life, the key of life if you may - Happiness. People can have different interpretations of happiness. In my mind it self, there are different realms to this essential key of life. Does happiness lay is how rich you are? Not just economically, how rich you are with company, how rich you are with compassion, how rich you are with education, knowledge? Does happiness lay in spreading happiness to others? Or does none of his matter as we ourselves control how happy we are?

I recently came to figure out that the idea of complete happiness does not exist. Its all a balancing act between the positives and negatives. The scale keeps tilting to either side at all times. Too much happiness, then some invisible force that I call fate (others call god) will lay more weights on the sadness side and vise versa. Also, its really difficult to achieve a balance. And that's what we all strive for over a lifetime. I recently visited an old age home and I notice there that there are a select few of among the aged that looked happy. While most of the rest seemed to be depressed. Now there could be multiple reasons why, but I am beginning to think that the ones who were happy were the ones who were able to strike a balance.

Could this be it. Our aim in life. To strike a balance between the positives and negatives that will somehow satisfy us and lead to happiness, the essential key or life? Yet again... my complex mind has multiple answers to that. See what I mean! 

For the human mind is never free from want

Its been a long time since I'v posted a new blog, but that has its reasons, the chief of it being the fact that I had virtually no access to internet in the awesome (pun intended) hostel I'm at. Now that is just me being very unfair to my hostel, but I guess it will forgive me for a few criticism. On the whole I am thoroughly enjoying my new life, my completely new I must say. The next time I feel like I want a change I should consider doing something way less grave though, like getting a hair cut for instance. Because this time I went completely overboard, starting with a hair cut, to a co-ed educational institute for the first time in my life, to staying away from family, of course, for the first time in my life. Haha!

But on a more serious note, all these changes has definitely had a positive impact on me. I find myself more independent that I ever was. I feel like I'm living my life for ME and not anybody else. Besides, when the decisions of life that you take are yours alone, and when you get a feeling that those decisions are indeed the right ones, it calls for a celebration. And I celebrate by living life trying my best to be how I am, and spending more of it first trying to figure out who I am! Its wonderful how much one learns about oneself once they are independent. Sometimes I feel like a true 18 year old with mood swings and irritations surly, but the overall picture is beautiful thought there can be a few rough edges here and there.I have got all that I have wanted if not better.

However its ironic how endless the human wants can be! It never gets over. I now have new needs and plans and goales. Its like the mind does not ever quit dreaming even after all dreams are fulfilled. 

Elated

Never thought one can feel more that happy, till today. A dream come true indeed. Remember feeling anxious and excited about the one thing I have been waiting to do for what feels like a life time? I did that one thing today. It was not just as awesome as I expected, it was better. I feel elated and really really happy.    I cant wait to have this kind of fun again! Two of my friends, also first timers to this kind of thing and I, however lost and confused we were had the time of your lives. And since it was all that I hoped it would be and even better, I now have my questions answered. I know what I can do now, more of this! lost more. It made me feel alive and on top of the world! One of my best days yet :D

My Current Question

People say that a persons true character is revealed when they are thrown into bad situations. Like when they are in danger or (more apt to my situation) when their temper is tested. I recently had to come across a situation when my nerves were boiling and I was at a loss on how to react. I first thought of ignoring the uncivil message sent my an old foe. And did do just that for a short amount of time, but my temper got the better of me. As a usual habit of mine, I will not take injustice done to me when I have done nothing wrong. And this unruly message accused me of having done something wrong while I was convinced I had not. At the moment I had decide to ignore it, I thought that the person vented out their anger and if I don't reply that would be the end of it. But somewhere along the short while I did ignore, I got a sudden upsurge of nerves and I had to set things clear. I sent this person a reply that consisted of a clear explanation in a rather rude manner of to clear it out. So here is the question. Is it right for one to always keep there composure and never be rude ever when aggravated or do you give people what they deserve by being rude?  

The Long Awaited

Face it. There is no better feeling than doing the one thing that you are not allowed to do. That surge of excitement is like none other. That thrill and the feeling of doing something you could get into trouble for and escaping or getting caught for it...its like none other. ( Except eating chocolate that is....nothing can beat the awesomeness of chocolate).
Why such a sudden surge of excitement you ask ?