Letter To 14 Year Old Me.

Dear 14 Year old me,

Its wonderful that you kept (still keeping) a diary, but frankly I am surprised that you have become me. Its crazy what four years can teach you. But Please, don't crib about the worries you have, because they are not even worries. I see you have an 8 point list of what you have to worry about. I cant help compare that to my list and ridicule it.

It does not matter if you have lost a basket ball match, and no! it does not make it worse if it was in front of your juniors. While you are concerned about loosing a stupid basketball match I am concerned weather the choices I make today might make me loose in life.

I'm sure you got the meaning of the word 'worry' wrong. If not, then something like having to write a lot in a chem practical record would not come in a 'Things I Have To Worry About' list. It could come in a 'Things I Have To Do' list, or at the most a 'Things I Have To Do Fast' list. And trust me, having written records in the last minute, and getting it confiscated for writing it during math class, and begged a certain Chitra Ma'am to understand, and pleading million math teachers to return the book after promising never to do that again ( a promise I technically did keep cause while I did write my record in class I never got caught for it) followed by an apology letter, you really have nothing to worry about.

Oh! This is interesting. You got 34 out of 50 in P.E is it? I wonder how you topped the class for your Boards, you know the exam that actually matters. Your reason- 'I cant understand I word Sir says'. Oh! Try sitting for a math class on Binomial Theorem, or listening to Squinty ( I don't remember her real name as she quit teaching after a few days) talk about circles, and try getting 18 out of 100 and then talk

'Church timings have changed. I have catechism during English Mass and now I cant check out all the hot guys. Really! That's your worry? I cant believe you! Ok, I give you the credit of being sad about it, those classes did suck, but where were the apparent hot guys? I still see them and I think you were blind! They are either as old as your dad or as ugly as a skeleton with a layer of skin and a 'horse ass' face.

Alright, now that's valid. You don't have time to dream because your busy. That is something to worry about. Someone at 14 should be able to dream as much as she wants. But that gives you no excuse to think that your becoming MAD ( and apparently think it mean Mentally A Dud and spell it wrong ). Try putting yourself in my position and then you will know what MAD really is ( common! I'm making fun of the younger me, that must have some symptoms of mental retardation). 

If your only hopes of excitement depended on getting a new crush, then you have some serious issues. Maybe I am starting to understand why I have certain mental problems and why my friends think I'm crazy. You got it right little one, what is wrong with you?

Point number 7 on my list - 'Lets just sum up all the entrances I have to write and crib about it at once to make it easier. Starting with having to study for it, the tension of writing it, and ending with the fear of the results ( since if you have not heard, they determine the rest of my life)'. Same point of a list 4 years back - ' I am obsessed over using words like ay ayo yappa and looser in life and dumb chick. Yeah! Kid, clearly you were running out of points, and if you'v been reading, those previous points make no sense.

What a serious problem you got there! Confused about whether you want to join the dance team or the Kannada Skit. Gee! I wonder how you solved that problem, maybe you could help me solve this other problem I have. Its a simple one I'm just confused on what I should do for the rest of my life.

Yours Sincerly,
18 year old YOU.