Its funny how an incident can make you experience contrary emotions simultaneously. You can feel extreme joy and bitter remorse at the same time. A baffling experience. A few days back my elder sister bagged a once in a life time award. She topped her class and won herself a gold medal in academics. A truly wonderful achievement. My joy and happiness for her was tremendous.
Yet, I found myself running away to seclusion and crying. I was confronted with so many questions. I wondered why good things are almost allergic to me, why I had to work so hard to be rewarded while others had to so easy. I thought life was unfair and cruel to all anything good. All the failures i faced in life flashed in front of me, on by one and made me feel even more pathetic. At times like these, we tend to search for someone who will sit by you and tell you that everything is going to be alright. For me, its usually my sister, but this time it was unfair to ask for her help. I felt more lonely than I have ever did. My next best consolation - Chocolate. I had a whole load it. Sadly, it didn't do the trick this time
What's unique about family, is that they are just there for you which ever side your smile turns. So my sister did come to console me. My problems were still problems, my sadness didn't disappear, I just got a feeling that I'm not alone. And that beats chocolate any day. We later sat with the rest of my family with some ice cream to celebrate our happiness together, while my dad declared that my sister has got some of his brains at least. Obviously, this was followed by denial from everyone. Basically, things got rather loud. As I sat there laughing at it all, my sorrow began to turn into hope and that was the only emotion I felt. I had hope that I would be rewarded someday, and just in case I'm not, I had faith that these people would stop me from falling, and help me try again. Its what life is all about anyway.
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